It has really been a long time since I actually sat down and had time to write and boy has a lot gone on in the past 12 months. But I guess the one thing that is good is that you can sit back and reflect and yeah things aren't too bad now.
Life is really a difficult mother fucker sometimes. Just when you start getting yourself into a routine and happy to sit back and enjoy the ride things start to get damn bumpy. I would be lying if I said I wasn't an emotional bugger... damn I get upset when clearing out my wardrobe and throwing out shoes, but I don't know why it has been about the past 12 months but it was damn tough!
The passing of 3 family members and both my dogs all within 12 months of each other has just been hard. I adored my grandmother and was not happy that she passed away while I was in New York and didn't really get to say goodbye, my grandfather passed away 4 months later on my mother's birthday and it was her father and then last week the last of my family dogs decided he had enough and said goodbye. Things can only get better!!!
One thing I have started to do and I don't know if it comes with (cough cough) age is to sit back and just see what life presents. I admit walking away from my full time job last year was a wise decision now, but back then I was very unsure. But I couldn't bare anymore drama in my life and needed some time with my family and less stress. What I didn't expect was the opportunities that were presented to me but also my friends that have been ever supportive, didn't expect that at all.
Over the last 12 months I have also met some really nice individuals some of whom have made me laugh, others that have got on my nerves and more recently some that have really made me smile (even when I didn't want to smile!). Did I expect that?... no... but I am going to take it slowly and see what life has to present.
Anyway as much as I don't feel like it I am going to continue my occasional ramblings in a blog and hopefully along the way have some fun.
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